and I don’t know, how to be fine when I’m not

19Mar08

hello I am utterly stoned. I don’t know seems to be the most common phrase of today:/

and thus, once again. I DON’T KNOW how I’m feeling right now. such a freaking rollercoaster today you know. and I’m rather hating myself. I DON’T KNOW damnit sigh. and I have to say something’s really not helping right now I’m feeling so crappy and I JUST don’t know what to do anymore damnit.

Thanks to those who’re talking me through this though. helping loads:/ F*CK.

for some reason I feel like I’m caught in suspension man:/ sigh I don’t know what to do anymore you know:/ I hope it’s not like what happened last time, I don’t wanna lose you. and I could type out a long paragraph of bull shit but I really think the sincerest words I can say are I don’t wanna lose you. and I know I’m not gonna be the one talking you through this, as much as I wish I was. but I hope that when you decide what to do. well I don’t know I can say what I want but yeah. I guess it’s right to say that I’ve been rushing this through and I know that’s my mistake. I hope you’ll give me a second chance:/  sigh. and I don’t know why this always seems to happen to me. well I don’t know. I don’t know whether to leave you alone, I don’t know whether to SMS you, to give you a call. and I know my call just now can’t have helped because today I’m such a wreck. but yes I mean everything I said to you just now. I wish we could all be living in a perfect world. I hate second guessing everything I hate it all. I really hope you’ll read this but yeah. sigh I hope everything’ll be okay.:/ ily<3

Filed under: Uncategorized   |  1 Comment